i'm hopeless

I want you to leave me alone.  Because every time you get my attention, I can't look away.  Every time you enter my mind, I can't think about anything else for hours.  

It's not fair.  I'm tired of being a prisoner.  I just want to get on with my life.  I don't want to have to wonder why you're gone again.  Why you tapped on my shoulder just to say hello, and then before I could open my mouth, you were gone.

God I hate you.  I hate you so much.