Panoramic picture-taking. If I ever get my laptop back I might put some on photobucket and share.
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May 28, 2009
May 5, 2009
well...
Yesterday I confessed to someone that I wanted to off myself. Meanwhile I told my mom that I really don't care about school anymore. And I really don't.
So both of those things got me sent to the grief counselor at school. She called my mom and told her what I said about not wanting to live anymore, mom came and picked me up, and then she made an appointment with my old therapist.
So I'll probably be going to therapy again for a while.
And therapy sucks. I drew a picture, which was nice, but then the picture made my cry. And for some reason I really don't like to cry in front of my therapist.
I don't know... I just don't care.
We bought an easel, a rug, some paint, and more canvases while we were out. I just want to be home right now, painting. Anywhere but here. It makes me sick to be here.
So both of those things got me sent to the grief counselor at school. She called my mom and told her what I said about not wanting to live anymore, mom came and picked me up, and then she made an appointment with my old therapist.
So I'll probably be going to therapy again for a while.
And therapy sucks. I drew a picture, which was nice, but then the picture made my cry. And for some reason I really don't like to cry in front of my therapist.
I don't know... I just don't care.
We bought an easel, a rug, some paint, and more canvases while we were out. I just want to be home right now, painting. Anywhere but here. It makes me sick to be here.
May 1, 2009
i live in my own little world.
It's not something you hear every day.
"You're out of touch with reality."
You know it's true. You've known it for a long time, you just never realised that this is what has been holding you down.
And you begin to wonder: How far away am I? Have I built a world inside my head to keep myself safe? Have I become a different person without noticing myself slip away? What do I do now?
I don't remember my life anymore. All I see is whatever is directly in front of me. All I hear is my own voice, crying for help. All I taste is the food that I miss. And I miss it because it made me feel like I was in another world.
How do I come back from where I am now? How do I get back in touch?
What if I was never in touch?
Except as a child. I can remember being a child, but I don't remember being alive today.
So there is nothing I can do, I suppose. I could try to become a child again, but what would happen to me then?
I would be nothing.
"You're out of touch with reality."
You know it's true. You've known it for a long time, you just never realised that this is what has been holding you down.
And you begin to wonder: How far away am I? Have I built a world inside my head to keep myself safe? Have I become a different person without noticing myself slip away? What do I do now?
I don't remember my life anymore. All I see is whatever is directly in front of me. All I hear is my own voice, crying for help. All I taste is the food that I miss. And I miss it because it made me feel like I was in another world.
How do I come back from where I am now? How do I get back in touch?
What if I was never in touch?
Except as a child. I can remember being a child, but I don't remember being alive today.
So there is nothing I can do, I suppose. I could try to become a child again, but what would happen to me then?
I would be nothing.
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